Catch up! Be aware of a long post!!

So I have this little boy, he is probably the best thing that has ever came into my life, about 7 months ago.  I watch him every other week-end and when I'm on breaks.  I never gets breaks, but that's okay!!  He's totally worth it, and hearing "Momma Jamie" just melts my heart when he says it.  

My momma and I on black Friday.  Don't mind us, we just spend our time shopping together!   She's the best thing ever! 

Then we have my moms side of the family thanksgiving.  With my aunties, uncles,cousins, and grandparents 

Cousins!!

Brother and son..  Please note that this Auntie is a proud auntie for teacher my nephew that face!! 

Zoey! 

First snow day of the year is spent with this baby girl.  Before the ER. 

Being the only one who can read to her, and not have her cry, help her stop crying, and being by her side 24/7 and her by mine.  I love her so much!! 

Setting up for Christmas. Best boys ever! 

Baby boy and grandma making the gingerbread house.  Well Baby boy eating the candy. 

  So my sister got married to the sweetest guy around! I'm so proud of them!  Love them both! 

Momma and her oldest daughter, on her wedding.. This picture brings tears to my eyes, just because of this moment i captured!! I love you guys! 

And last but not least!! It's Christmas time!  And that means Whip cream mouths, and family time!!

Well with all that I must say it's been a pretty hectic year.  Being out of state for a weekend, baby-sitting, and everything else.  When I say "I'm sorry i have no time for unplanned things"  I mean it!!

Christmas was a blast, i had three of them and one thanksgiving.

However my blogs are going to be picking up again, unless my health stops me, because I've had a bunch of medical things going on.  So it's putting a stop on things.  

Gold

So, one of my new favorite songs is called "Gold" By Britt Nicole.

And after a really rough week with everything I've been struggling with the song came on, and it hit home... God is always working in mysterious way!

 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.

Joshua 1:9 This verse is probably one of my favorites, and I'm going to get it inked on my left shoulder.  

My baby....All grown up

Days old 

Three years old 

So my little buddy is starting Preschool this year *Tears up*   I can't believe how fast times flown...

So this post is all about my baby!
He's helped me throw so much!  He's given me strength!
I love how he knitted this family together.  He loves his grandmas, papas, aunties, uncles,mommy, daddy, cousins.  And his soon to be cousin!  He's grown so much! Love you buddy!!!!!!!

Look at him transform!
He's looking so much like his daddy!

My life, my struggles.

"My life has lead me down the road that's so uncertain"
   So why did i title my post " my life, my struggles?  Because i feel like we need to know... That we *All* go through struggles....

   I'm going to share a good amount of my childhood.... 
   So growing up i lived with my mom and 4 older siblings.... When i turned about 3 my mom dated a guy who had two kids, who later we moved in with so there was 6 kids and a "dad"  someone who i *Never* really had in my life.  I grew up with my grandfather being my dad and the guy my mom dated...  When i was 5 my parents got married.... I honestly couldn't see my life without this "dad" in my life... He was my dad.  I actually had a dad, along with all my other friends... Then once i hit my teen years he wasn't my dad... He was my *step*-dad....  This isn't fair!  All the kids have dads! Why don't i!  All my siblings have one!  Then last year i moved in with a family, that had their parents.... And the little girl goes " Jamie, you don't need a earthly father!  You have a heavenly father that loves you no matter what!"   And i started thinking I have 3 dads that love me!  One i didn't see, one who was a step-dad and a heavenly father!  Best kinds ever!!
17 years later i'm living with my real dad... Having the time of my life... Seeing my other 4 siblings... Make a grand total of: 10 siblings that are amazing!

But my whole post about not having a dad is... No matter what you do, where you go, or what your dads done to you.. You will *always* have a heavenly father that will NEVER LEAVE YOU OR FORSAKE YOU! 

I was always the one that never wanted anything to do with familys that had dads cause i was near tears cause they had dads... But now i'm all Whatevers... I mean don't get me wrong... I'm living with my dad... But it's not the same... I'm still sad... I'm not sure where i want to be.. But God knows...

On a new note...
School starts in a week!  My friends coming over! And i'm a senior this year!!!

Whats new. What's going on!

Well i have had some things go on, in the past month that has made me more social. and now i'm kind of done adjusting.  I feel so much more loved, my eyes are actually opening to my friends and family.  And my little sister would say "I have a friend to play with now" and my little brother would say "Someone that doesn't yell at us so much" So it's amazing to feel and hear them say things.  I have never once felt so blessed.  My nephew is probably one of my family members that have gave me strength to get through all of this, and my little siblings and my "adopted" parents.  They understand, they love, and care, and listen.  Through the fights i've gave them, the attitude, they still love me! Better or for worse.  My life is just turned around and is going for the better, is about 3 months i'll be out of state for a month, my sister is having her second child!!!!!! I'm just so excited! I wish i could actually let people know how i felt, but i can't.. My actions don't show it.  I hope my love does.  When the going gets rough just remember don't give up. Or don't give in!

I encourage you to listen to "I have a plan for you" By Brian Wahl  ( the song is the link below)

         http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DumKFCYAlmA

Sunday notes.

I have been meaning to post this past month, but I've just been crazy busy.  So now I'll post what I wanted to about a month ago.

Sitting at church on a typical Sunday not wanting to be there.. Ever had that feeling?  I know that I have. 


"Sin will that you farther then you wanted to go, and cost you more then you wanted to pay"
   I am posting this because sin is guilt to some of us.. And we all have some guilt in our lives....It could be little, big, or medium size, but it doesn't matter, guilt/sin, is sin.  

And here are some questions for you to think about..

1) How is your relationship with the Lord, with where you are truly are at? (Be honest)

We shouldn’t answer from our view point, because that's how we see it.. Not how God sees it.. Go talk to God, and see where he says you guys are at.
 Our relationship isn't meant to be comfy (Comfort should be a red flag) because! When you are comfy you don't want to move, or be moved.. You are happy how it is, and God always wants us to grow.   We are supposed to have challenged, and stretch. *Stop picking up your baggage and let God take it over* this is so hard for me to do.. I never want to give my things up.. But God is so much bigger than my problems.. And will help us through our baggage. 

2) How is your family relationship?
   We are to *our* own part in fixing things.. Even if it's the hardest thing to do.  But we cannot be responsible for what *they* say or do.

3) How are your relationships within the body of Christ?
God always will give you a clean slate.  *Just ask!*
Restore.
And the biggest part of it all!
Act upon your actions and request.

New year.. Now what?

So now that Christmas is done and over with.. And all the holidays that come with it..
I can honestly say.. Having a 2 year old with you at Christmas.. Makes for a busy day.. But a day filled with love..
Having a game night with that little fella, showed me how much he loves his grandma.
 His mom and I had brought him downstairs for about a half-hour to play in the sand.. And he kept saying "Where is my grandma?!" And i would always let him know she is upstairs, and so later as i carried him up the stairs he saw grandma... And he told me to put him down.. And ran up to grandma as fast as he could.. With his arms wide open.. And it made me think... That this is how we should be running up to God. Our HEAVENLY father who will NEVER leave us.. Who is ALWAYS there for us. He knows everything before we even do it.. We need to start running to God with our arms wide open.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5i6h3FRFYH4
This song has been on my heart for awhile now.. Especially with what's going on.. I can't bear to see anything happen.. My life, or yours. I will not run away.. "If i run to you will YOU hold me in your arms forever more?" Who could hold you? Who could you give the biggest and most bestest monkey hug ever? And know you will NOT be dropped? God.

I've often thought about how can i get through the days that seem like they never end.. The days i need a hug or ones i can't even face..
So i challenged my best friend and i to put up daily bible verses on post its. Well i can honestly say.. I failed at that.. But not a day goes by that i don't think of one.. I don't need a bible verse to remind me that God loves me.. I should know it.. But sometimes i need that extra reminder.. So i will challenge whoever reads this to do the same.. Bible verse that you think will help you throughout the day.. on a sticky note. Where you will see it!

Sorry this is so long.!